letting go of cancer?

Here in the quiet before bed
Relief’s tears creep in on me
The shaky breath I take in
As I sip Drambuie
And a whisper in my mind
Something I almost dare not speak
It is over
It carries so much with it
Something that has been in my life
Not far from anything
Might be
Done
Over
And the awesome feeling
Of what
That life return to normal
Well no – I can never return to the past
Then what
Of the future
To step up
Move on
Let go of Cancer
Some might say
Hell Yes
But for me
Cancer has been a motivator
A Blessing in disguise
Something to fight
A reason to make my life better
To follow my passion before it was too late
Some of my tears ask
What next?
Has my life have other goals
To propel me forward
And do I dare let go of cancer
In the chance it will come back
Well maybe it is best to let that go
Since I tell cannot my future
But it will forever, at least for now
Lay in the back of my mind
And so maybe I will never completely let it go
But let it be where it belongs
In some future
Then my past
For now to hold the joy, celebration
The quiet hope
Passions determination
And sigh
With the dishes needing to be done
Meetings attended
When I want to nothing more then go
To the Top of the Empire State Building
With friends
And
Dance and Shout
I am Free
I am Cancer Free