don't know where to start

I got into work this morning and found emails from my siblings that indicated my 90 year old dad wasn't doing too good - and mom keeps slipping into her own world. It took a lot not to go to that scared place and worry about both of them.

I really tried to stay focused on work - though I confess I was a little in shock and feeling a little lost. Now I have got to the afternoon and am doing okay. I called dad and left a message.

I did my Weight Watchers tracking. Damn, that chocolate from yesterday really put me over - but it was the perfect pick-me-up. I felt much better in the afternoon.

Exercise - I have been giving this some thought recently. Now, granted, in NYC I do a fair bit of walking in my normal day just getting to and from work. And I do make it a point to get out for a brief walk either to Pratt rose garden or to my favorite oak tree. But I have been looking at blogs of people who have lost significant amounts of weight and one key thing that really helps is exercise. Now I have tried gyms - there is even one here at work - but it doesn't work for me. Something about going somewhere, putting things in a locker, exercising just doesn't appeal to me - maybe it is be self conscience about not wanting to be in a gym with others - feeling a little foolish about being fat and being in a gym. There are a couple of places I would consider that put exercise and lockers together. First would be a Curves gym if one were convenient to me and the other is a YMCA with a pool. If it didn't cost so much to go to the YMCA near me in Queens - I would go regularly - or maybe I am making an excuse - but I am not ready to tackle that right now. What I have been thinking of doing is going on YouTube and finding Zumba videos and doing a little dancing in my apartment. I think the best time for me is when I get home from work. Don't bother turning on the TV - just do some dancing before watching the news or the Simpsons or The Big Bang Theory. So, maybe I challenge myself again here - knowing I will track and talk about my progress here. The two week challenge really isn't that bad - it is keeping it going after those two weeks that might be the hard part. I am going to look into both the YMCA and Curves to see what is around me. Stalling tactic - certainly - but one of these days very soon I am going to just do it. So, I just checked out my local YMCA and it is $51 a month plus a joiner's fee. That is much more doable then when I looked a coupe of years ago. They do have a pool as well as a gym and an indoor track. I will have to see what other things they have. I would have to look at my budget, but I would seriously consider going to the YMCA especially since it is on the 7 train that I travel on nearly every day. I could get fee information about Curves and there is only one in Manhattan that might be convenient for me to go to.

As for the sweets challenge - I found myself thinking about fruits I would buy on my weekly shopping trip instead of thinking about dessert. I actually took dessert off my shopping list. For now I am going to stick with the fruit.