Love letters experiment

So, and a heavy sigh.

Therapy helped a lot last night - helped me see despite my tizzy that I did several things to be proactive and that I am not without choices. Again today i am trying to be kind and gentle to myself, but I am still feeling rather foolish that I got so emotionally wound up.

We talked about trust and anger. I found this quote on Facebook this morning: Holding onto anger is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die - Felice Dunas - AMEN! so now the challenge of letting go. It is so simple, yet can be hard for me.

So, I want to move on to brighter things. I picked up this book "Outrageous Openness: Letting the Divine Take the Lead" on my smart phone kindle. First - I love my kindle app because I can highlight text and save notes - it is so cool! Second this is a very easy and fun book to read and it helps give me hope. The author talks about letting go of attachments to goals and she is always "calling on the Divine Order" And this leads to my experiment: Writing love letters from the Goddess to me - and me to the Goddess. It feels like a fun and positive thing to do - so I am going to give it a try:

Dearest Carolyn,
I know you want me in your life in a special way and you have struggled to figure that out. I want you to know I am with all the time, I am as close as the air you breathe. I love you so much, you are so precious to me and I want to see you truly happy. We talk so often together - I hear all your worries and sorrows. You can trust me and give them over to me. I know it is hard to let go and to give up control. Become the water - let you and I become one, not just you here and me out there. I am so proud of you all that you are capable of. I know how strong you are even when you feel so lost and unsure.
Let me fill you with love and let us walk together today.
With all love, affection and support,
Goddess