Daylight savings

So, my sleep clock is messed up. Last night as I went to be at midnight my body was saying "no, it is 11" so it took me another hour or so to get to sleep - and then getting up this morning - well, lets just say it was a cab day......

I am feeling more positive since last week. I figured, "yeah, I have lots of painful memories to work through, but I also have a choice of how I feel minute to minute "and so I am going to keep as positive and happy as I can as I work through the pain. I also think of the choice as loving myself, all of me, unconditionally, and that yeah it is going to hurt, but I don't have to stay in that hurt place all the time. Part of the loving is telling the painful stories so they don't hurt anymore and part of the loving is also being happy and positive now.

So I am trying a new app - Lose It! A lot like WW but I don't have to spend $40 a month. I entered a couple recipes and I will try entering some foods that I can't find in their database. It track calories - which everyone tracks. It has an exercise place. I am going to give it a try before a let WW go.

My knee is still wanky but I am walking. I did a lot of resting yesterday which I thought would help but at least I keep walking.

I have to confess I watched about a documentary series this weekend, one about Shakespeare and the other about the Tower of London. Okay, so I am a closet anglophile! I got all misty eyed over wanting to go to England and Scotland again. To see Hampton Court, visit the Malcolm castle, Duntrune, go to the Lake District and the Cotswolds, Yorkshire and the Orkney's. sigh.

Here is a little accomplishment! I made appointments with my OBGYN and GP for yearly checks. This is big for me since I really don't like doctors and I haven't seen them since my cancer treatment or before. So another step back to 'normal life'. I scheduled them for AFTER my birthday just in case there is something new I have to deal with - I won't have my birthday time shadowed by those anxieties.