Naming Fears

I have found it hard to write here recently because of dealing with doubt and fears. I don't want to talk about them, and that is one why they hide. I talk and named some of my fears in therapy yesterday. I sat down as part of my nightly devotion and letting go of worries I sat down and wrote down a whole bunch of fears and then put them in my worry box for the goddess, which is getting fun and I will burn all those worries next week at Lammas, August 1/2. As I think about these fears there are other fears behind them too. I think by sharing them in various ways, therapist, here, my worry box, I bring those fears out into the light where they can't hide and I begin to have the courage to not so much conquer them but to befriend them, as I relearned in a recent workshop. So to bring them out into the light, to befriend them, to see they are not so overwhelming and huge but scared little things. Also that fear are not be be fought, but to be befriended and then to see the I am not my fears which then I hope will allow me to work at overcoming them with courage. Here is some of the list. Fear of: being alone when I am old - especially when I die that I won't find an intimate loving caring sexy relationship Losing friends not making womanspace a reality the NYC Red Tent Temple will cease to exist Men - I am scared of them - that they won't listen, won't be respectful, won't love me, won't accept me as I am that i am not good enough - that I don't have the skills to make womanspace and other dreams a reality that i am not enough - that I have to do more to prove who I am, prove more that i am important not having resources to get old with no one loves me being a failure in life disappointing my parents - still of making mistakes never being seen or heard It is hard to write these because my fears are where I am most vulnerable and most hurt And this also makes me think of the ritual that was part of the workshop last week that walked women through naming their fears, what they were connected to and them by saying these things and by positive affirmations began to break the power of the fears.