Naming fears part 2

I thought of another fear: that I won't be taken seriously when I go to visit directors in other workshop oranizations

And then a bright spot came to me: making peace with my it. Very recently my 'it's activity was increasing. I started to get scared, I didn't want to go back to where I was a couple of years ago or more. So, I talked with it. I said in a friendsly calm almost loving inner voice 'yes I know you are and I truely thank you for your attention. You are trying to tell me something, let me to be aware, especially to love myself.' It was in this little conversation that I went from a place of annoyance and even fear to a place of acceptance and even gratitude. Now there was a time when I was terrified of it - to the point of almost lossing my marbles. Many people helped but one key came when I worked with a healer/shaman who helped me see that it was part of me. So for me to get to this point of thanking it for the reminder and for being gratiful for the message it gives me is a HUGE step. Again it a calmed down, but every few days sh gives me a shake. I say to her 'hello, thank you for reminding to love myself'

This little story gives me a path with my other fears, to begin to befriend them and make them my allies and early warning system for issues that need to be dealt with. I also use my anxiety in the way. My anxiety is my warning system telling me I need to deal with something and soon