Well - I did my political protest and mischief making going to Occupy Wall Street - NYC on Sunday afternoon.
Monday I celebrated the Wiccan/Celtic New Year with special food and watching Charlie Brown "Great Pumpkin" and doing a little spell of releasing and consulting Runes. I stayed up until the wee hours watching a Hope/Crosby "Road" movie.
Tuesday I had lunch - more like an english tea with scones, raspberry jam and clotted cream with extras - with a lovely friend at Alices's Tea Cup.
I definitely haven't been tracking on WW or doing dancing with my friend - but it is now time to get back on the wagon and start working on things again.
Along with the recent question about food and shame - I am also fussing about the holidays - especially holiday baking. When I made my stolen - I like using cream and butter and the best ingredients I can. Just as with Halloween - making special holiday food is important to me. It connects me to my love of baking, creating something with love and family history, and sharing good food. For as many years as I can remember, my mother made stolen each holiday, as gifts and for the family on Christmas morning. By making the stolen and holiday cookies - I continue a tradition that I love. It is one of the few times when I do bake and the apartment is fill with warmth and the aroma of baking bread. So - I am going to enjoy my traditions - even making a stolen I will enjoy myself over the holidays - by using the good ingredients of butter and cream. The tradition is more important to me then how many points they are in WW.
I am also thinking some about food and shame. Here are the questions rattling around in my mind:
1. What other foods carry shame for me? cookies, cake, fried food, rich food, cobblers, pies, peanut butter, brownies, pastries, ...
2. What to do about the shame? Shame isn't healthy - especially dealing with food issues. So how do I change the shame? Can I change these into good things to eat? Or change the shame? What is the shame? because someone said "no - you shouldn't have that" at some point?
As with most humans - I hate to change. I admitted to a friend recently that I was very reluctant to change a certain eating pattern - it felt like the little girl in me was just being defiant and stubborn - kind of "I don't want to just because...". I can't remember what pattern or food we were discussing - I can very clearly remember the resistance rising in me - all I can remember of the conversation is that I will try rice cakes is what came from it.....
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