Friday

I let myself sleep in this morning, then I took my time getting ready. I even had a pep talk in the mirror "Carolyn, you are going to be fine. I know you are scared. You don't like going to doctors. This is a doctor you like. I love you. *wink and smile*. Goddess is right here with you - let go and trust her and things will be okay and don't forget to ask for the manual blood pressure machine"

Pep talk over - I have 'Mommy/Soma' brushing time in the morning which always lightens my mood. I put on my coat and scarf because some how my neck always gets cold - I put in my ear buds to listen to Beethoven and remind myself I games to play and books to ready if I begin to get anxious.

All went well until I got to the doctor office and they tell me the appointment is canceled, and that I canceled it.

I try not to make too much of a snit - but the mistake was theirs. I got an new appointment in June and went outside to the Union Square Farmers Market and took pictures of pretty flowers to calm down. I got some really nice pictures. Then I came to work. The one good up side of this is that I save $30 that I can use for something else over what is becoming a very busy weekend.