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I find myself in a little funk today - getting down on myself. My love of sugar is rubbing me the wrong way today - I would even venture to addiction - and that is hard for me to say. What brought this about - coming home from my friends last night and I needed my sweet fix. So I made cinnamon sugar popcorn. I have for years joked about with friends that one thing I love is having my sweet at the end of the day. It is one of those nice little things during the day. Well, today I don't feel so cheery about it. I am not saying that I can get all sugar out of my diet - some sugar is good. But I do want to change one little pattern - not by giving up an evening sweet - but by changing it with either fresh fruit, maybe with some nuts and honey - or yogurt and fruit - and to move away from cobblers, cookies and cakes. So I am going to try the change - for two weeks - first to see if I can do. So as I write this I feel my grumpiness lift a little - because I am really not giving something up completely - but I am changing to something else - something healthier. Okay - so this feels like a little triumph - it hard to admit something, to be honest, to be willing to try to change - and in that feel like I can release the extrat weight - to get to a healthier weight - it turns that little despair of "will I ever get there" into a hopeful, faithful idea that this is another step to success.