catching up

"Brain in Brain - What is Brain?" - from the original Star Trek

That is what I feel like, a little today, thoughts scattered. So I think I will just chatter here:

Planning the holiday - I have been trying to figure out when I am going to do my holiday baking. I need to devote a couple of solid days where baking is going to be the main activity. So I think I am going to do my one day of holiday running around this weekend and move the baking off to next weekend and right before xmas, since I have 12/23 off.

Holiday funkiness: I have been feeling my "left-out-of-my-family" feeling again. This comes from growing up basically as an only child, but with 4 older brothers and sisters. I haven't really felt part of their family/my family. This is something I have struggled with all my life and now with the situation changing with my parents and the holidays, I am feeling it again. It is a sorrow that I am missing something just out of my reach. I was never involved in their lives and they were not involved in mine. Now, if I keep going I will get all weepy and I really don't want to go there right now.

Chilli - I made chilli last weekend and the key spices I used where celery salt, cayenne pepper (not too hot), parsley and cocoa. Well, since cocoa has caffeine in it, I think that is why I have been up late all this week. I wish they could make a caffeine free cocoa, because it really tastes good in the chilli.

I haven't gotten back to my Zumba yet, but plan to. Last weekend I got lots done on Saturday, but then Sunday every muscle, especially in my legs ached, I mean really hurt, especailly the back of my legs. It didn't seem to me I did anything that strenuous or unusual on Saturday. Maybe it was something 'leftover' from the flu I had over Thanksgiving. So I have taken time to let that heal before getting back to dancing. Today! and it will help with the holiday funk.

Actually - I am feeling pretty good about my eating routine/habits right now. I feel like I have finally found a good combination. I haven't been tracking on WW as rigourously as I should - maybe this is an excuse - okay it is an excuse - the holidays - I just don't want to stress too much about food. I want to mindful and stick to my routine as much as possible and not freak out about food - so I am going to stick with my routine and excuse for now.

Okay - that is enough chatter for now.
I feel a little better.......